Saturday, February 6, 2010

Don't ya love late night infomercials?

So, my husband and I are sitting here watching tv and an infomercial comes on about Lapband. It's was by a local surgery group around here. There were 5 people on the show and they were talking about their experience and why they chose it and what they've been through. It really got me emotional. It made me think. I've been overweight since the 1st grade. I've struggled with weight all but 6 years of my life. I have memories of dieting when I was only 11 years old. I had a little Disney Aladdin diary back then and theres an entry from when I was 11 talking about a "new diet plan" that I had come up. Do you remember when you were a kid and you would take an orange slice and bite down on it and put you lips over it and act like a monkey? Well, my plan was to slice up oranges and have one in my mouth like that all the time, so I couldn't eat. I know that sounds super silly, but I was only 11. Makes me so sad. Poor kid. But what got me really emotional was thinking, "Wow, am I really going to get to be normal?" "Is my dream of being thin really going to come true?" I never thought I'd ever get the chance. I've tried and failed too many times before, it just can't be done. But I was wrong. I know I have a long road ahead of me, but now I have hope. Sometimes dreams DO come true.


Cathy said...

You're gonna do great with this! You have the will and determination. You just have to keep telling yourself that this is for life. Once you reach your goal, you've got to keep up the exercise and diet to keep the weight off. Is it hard? Yes. But I know you can do it. I've enjoyed reading your blog so far!!!

Janelle said...

I feel the exact same way! I try to diet all the time but have just figured I will always look like this. It is too hard to starve myself all the time so I guess I am stuck being big all my life.

Now that I am getting the lapband, I have the same thoughts as you. Will I finally get to be normal? Will I look like my friends? Will I come out of my shell a bit since I won't be scared of people thinking I am fat? The possibilities are endless and I just can't wait to see what happens. It definitely IS a dream come true!

Jenny said...

Its so weird how none of us really know each other but we all have this in common. Thanks for putting your feelings out there, you are definately NOT alone!!