Thursday, May 6, 2010

Total Ramble

So a day or two after my 3rd fill, my immense tightness dissipated a little bit. Drinking is not a problem and I can even chug if I want to. As far as eating is concerned, I have to take it VERY slow and be extra careful. I don't really think that I'm too tight (well maybe a tiny smidge) but this is all a new feeling to me. Before this fill, I became full sooner but could still eat somewhat normally. Now I understand why some of you post that you had a HALF a protein bar for breakfast or just ONE egg. I get it now. I think this is how its supposed to be. I believe I'm at my sweet spot (for now). I was experiencing some heartburn for the first few days after the fill but that is gone thank goodness. The day before yesterday begin my TOM and I definitely noticed a difference in the tightness. I went back to being too tight. The only thing I was able to eat all day and KEEP DOWN was m&m's and mashed potatoes. I had WAY too many m&m's and about a half cup of potatoes. The next day I had an Easy Mac bowl and protein shakes. Today has been better. I was able to eat good, except when we went out to for Cinco De Mayo. I ordered a lunch size chimichanga (chicken). It was all juicy an delicious and I took 2 small bites and chewed super good but it wasn't going down well. I had to stop. You get to a point where it just pisses you off. You just want to EAT!! My all day PB fest the other day pissed me off too. I was just angry about it. It wastes my time. I can't do anything or concentrate on anything when I'm in the middle of stuckville. It sucks. I had to go into an important meeting at work that day while being stuck and I pb'd in the car on the way (I guess it was more like sliming, I just hate that word) and before the meeting and I still wasn't clear so I had to talk to these ppl feeling like crap. To make matters worse, my throat was making the occasional sound, like tiny bubbles coming up as my food went down. It was a bad day. But TOM will be over soon and hopefully that will be the end of the issues. If not, I'll go in for a slight unfill, but I really think it will be ok. Being this tight takes the fun out of eating lol! Which I guess is kinda good. I can't mindlessly shove food in my face. I just can't, it won't go! I have to be slow and take my time. However I did find a very yummy treat today and it went down with ease. Chocolate Peanut Butter Bugles. OMG, SOOOOOO gooooood!! But sooooo bad cuz you can't just eat one. Do any of you use your TOM as a pass to eat yummy treats?? I think I'm totally guilty of it, and I need to work on that. I know it's ok to indulge every once in awhile but not three days in a row! I understand what people have said about when you're too tight you'll turn to slider food. Candy really does go down great...booo!! Stupid candy!

Tomorrow I plan on drinking an ass load of water and packing a good nutritious lunch for work, no sweets!!

6 comments:

Girl Bandit said...

Glad u have eased a little. I am super tight and sick of the embarassing gurling sounds coming from my throat. Ahhhhhh

Jacquie said...

Chocolate PB Bugles? I'll have to look into this or not! So far my fill is making me fuller sooner but I am still able to eat most things. I hope you loosen up a tad soon! You are doing great!

Cathy said...

Oh hell. Chocolate bugles. I wish you hadn't told us about those!

Sorry to hear about your bad days. I can sooooo relate to everything you described. There is nothing worse than having to work when you just want to curl up and die. I am definitely tighter during TOM. Just don't ever make the mistake I made and get a fill during that time. It will completely send you over the edge. It sounds like you are just a tad bit too tight, but I wouldn't get an unfill just yet. Sometimes things loosen up after a few weeks. I spent a good 3 months like that a couple of years ago and it was getting to the point that I was eating very unhealthy foods. I was still able to lose weight on a diet of cookies and chocolate, but my body felt horrible. LOL. I decided to get an unfill and I was able to eat more leaner meats, vegetables, and salads. Some people are ok with being that tight and others not. Listen to your body and see how you feel in a few weeks. Have you tried the papaya tablets for the stuck episodes?

Fiona said...

Hi Ashli, sorry you are not feeling great. Hope its over soon. On your comment that it takes the fun out of eating my surgeon told me before the band that his aim was to make eating a chore. I'm not quite there yet but my head still wants more than my stomach can handle. And as for the bodily noises, my stomach growls so loud I have to apologise in meetings! I hope that gets better. Good luck with the water and no sweets, you can do it x

Beth said...

I am definitely guilty of using my period as a free for all, last time may have been one of the worst, I bought about 4 or 5 candy bars and ate them, stopped with I felt some restriction and as I soo as I felt clear it was back to the Reese's.
*Beth*

Teresa said...

I am an advocate of papaya tablets when you are in stuckville. Whoever invented those should be elevated to sainthood! They have been my salvation. Chew 3, wait a few minutes, and you will either get rid of the substance, or the tablets will break it down and pass on thru. Either way, relief is just minutes away w/the tablets. Also, carry some in your purse to have handy when you are not at home. Trust me, I know the feeling ALL too well! Best of luck!