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I feel like total crap. I have let myself go the last several months maybe even this whole last year, and I am totally paying for it. Also, I feel like I'm kind of using the prospect of getting the Lap Band as a crutch. Like, I can eat what I want now because in a few months I'll be getting the band. Well, what if I don't get approved? What would I do then? I guess I'd have to go on diet 2,492. UGH!!!! I'm going to call Aetna tomorrow and see if they've received my paperwork from the doctor's office yet. I pray they have. I'm ready for an answer.