Hello0o0o!

Hey guys! Just wanted to drop in real quick and say I'm still alive! Things are going good. I've felt much better since the unfill but I'm finding that as each day goes by it seems as though I can eat more and more. Not that I'm pigging out or anything, but for instance, I got a flat bread turkey sandwich from Subway last night. It's like a pita folded like a taco with stuff in the middle. Anyway, I was able to eat the whole thing. It wasn't huge by any means but I'm not used to being able to do that, and it kind of scares me a little. I don't want to fall into bad old habits. I'm going to plan on scheduling another fill in about 2 weeks. By then, it will def be time. I only want to go in .25cc increments though. I've learned my lesson. It doesn't pay to be too tight. Screw that!

Anyhoo, I'm sure I've lost 30 pounds by now, but I haven't weighed myself for a few days. Speaking of weights, my doctors scale weighs like 2 pounds less then mine does, which I love! Because no matter what I weigh at home, I know I really weigh LESS than that! lol!

Exercise is still an issue for me. I suck at it! It's been rainy the past two weeks with highs in the low 60 so that hasn't helped in my motivation much. But this week is supposed to be NICE so I will be out burning some cals. I bought this workout dvd the night before last. It's a country workout. I've never seen a country one so I thought I'd give it a try. It's so funny, when the girl comes out, she's got on a sports bra and a mini jean skirt (the kind that fans out a little) with a giant belt buckle. lol! The majority of the time you're supposed to have your thumbs hooked on your belt in "holster hands" position! lol, it's cute.

Did anyone else get an email from a guy asking if we wanted to join some cause against obesity? He works for Allergan.

Anyhoo, it's about bedtime for me. Don't forget to treat yourself to some at home shopping at my Avon store (www.youravon.com/ashlimarlow) Right now there's a special on our brand new product called Luminocity. It's AWESOME!! It gets rid of age spots, sun spots, acne spots, rosasia, it evens skin tones and brightens skin. It also takes away fine lines. when you buy it now, you'll get a full size container of Anew Eye Lift ($28) for FREE!! I'm using both these products and love them! It's never too early or too late to start a skin care regiman!

Goodnight all!

I feel good, dun nuh na nuh na nuh na, like I knew that I would now!..

I got my unfill today. The doctor and I agreed that 0.25cc was how much he was going to take out. Once he got in there however, he said that the fluid "jumped" into the syringe without having to be sucked out, meaning I was too tight (duh). SO, he decided to go ahead and take out a half cc. I have to tell you, I FEEL GREAT!! I'm so glad to be back to normal!! I came home and ate and didn't have pain, didn't get stuck, it was beautiful!!!

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Bedtime for me! TTYL :)

Enough is Enough

So I'm scheduled for an unfill today. I'm going to have a half cc taken out I think. I'm not getting enough protein in and I find myself relying on slider foods because good wholesome foods are too hard to eat. Whenever I try to eat something real I get stuck 1 or 2 bites in no matter how good I chew. It's ridiculous. On mother's day we had dinner at my mom's and it took me an hour and a half to eat and that was without eating the meat because I couldn't and I pb'd twice. Awhile after dinner I got some dessert and it took me all of 10 mins to get it down. UGH!! I can eat bad things sooo easy. My thought process on all this was that I knew I was a little too tight, but that I'd probably just lose weight faster and it would loosen up on it's own. NOT! Since I have to eat unhealthy things to even be able to eat, I'm not losing any faster than I was before. So why suffer?? I'm going to have a little unfil and I can't wait to start eating protein again and not get stuck on my first bite.

I found a great snack yesterday. It's a cracker made by WASA and it's light rye. It's made with 100% whole grains and has 3g fiber, zero fat and only 60 calories for 2 big crackers. They're the size of graham crackers so 2 is plenty. I just had them for breakfast with some laughing cow cheese. I was pleasantly surprised it went down nicely and was yummy to boot!

First 5K....check.

I walked my first 5K today. It was great. Too bad it was so cold (50 F) and windy but at least it was sunny. We finished in 55 mins. I only fell once! LOL! I'm notorious for falling. It's a gift. Can't wait to do another one!

Total Ramble

So a day or two after my 3rd fill, my immense tightness dissipated a little bit. Drinking is not a problem and I can even chug if I want to. As far as eating is concerned, I have to take it VERY slow and be extra careful. I don't really think that I'm too tight (well maybe a tiny smidge) but this is all a new feeling to me. Before this fill, I became full sooner but could still eat somewhat normally. Now I understand why some of you post that you had a HALF a protein bar for breakfast or just ONE egg. I get it now. I think this is how its supposed to be. I believe I'm at my sweet spot (for now). I was experiencing some heartburn for the first few days after the fill but that is gone thank goodness. The day before yesterday begin my TOM and I definitely noticed a difference in the tightness. I went back to being too tight. The only thing I was able to eat all day and KEEP DOWN was m&m's and mashed potatoes. I had WAY too many m&m's and about a half cup of potatoes. The next day I had an Easy Mac bowl and protein shakes. Today has been better. I was able to eat good, except when we went out to for Cinco De Mayo. I ordered a lunch size chimichanga (chicken). It was all juicy an delicious and I took 2 small bites and chewed super good but it wasn't going down well. I had to stop. You get to a point where it just pisses you off. You just want to EAT!! My all day PB fest the other day pissed me off too. I was just angry about it. It wastes my time. I can't do anything or concentrate on anything when I'm in the middle of stuckville. It sucks. I had to go into an important meeting at work that day while being stuck and I pb'd in the car on the way (I guess it was more like sliming, I just hate that word) and before the meeting and I still wasn't clear so I had to talk to these ppl feeling like crap. To make matters worse, my throat was making the occasional sound, like tiny bubbles coming up as my food went down. It was a bad day. But TOM will be over soon and hopefully that will be the end of the issues. If not, I'll go in for a slight unfill, but I really think it will be ok. Being this tight takes the fun out of eating lol! Which I guess is kinda good. I can't mindlessly shove food in my face. I just can't, it won't go! I have to be slow and take my time. However I did find a very yummy treat today and it went down with ease. Chocolate Peanut Butter Bugles. OMG, SOOOOOO gooooood!! But sooooo bad cuz you can't just eat one. Do any of you use your TOM as a pass to eat yummy treats?? I think I'm totally guilty of it, and I need to work on that. I know it's ok to indulge every once in awhile but not three days in a row! I understand what people have said about when you're too tight you'll turn to slider food. Candy really does go down great...booo!! Stupid candy!

Tomorrow I plan on drinking an ass load of water and packing a good nutritious lunch for work, no sweets!!

Compare Me!

Hello Ladies!! Well, today I am officially 25 pounds down. I decided to take some pics. So here's me today (right) and me 6 weeks ago (left)